The Santa Screw-UP

As my wonderful son sat on the floore sreaming "I'm surrounded by Toys!!", it occured too me that Santa was evil! That fat old troll had brought my kid so many toys that I was going to have to purchas a house just to have enough space for them. It was like a bulb going off in my head, dummy you over bought!! Joey would have been just as Happy with 1/2 the gifts, but I could afford to go nuts and I did. It wasn't just my son, but he was probably the biggest recipient of my "I have money and way to much time on my hands" syndrome. I have more Christmas spirit this year than I have in a while, and I managed to get throu the holday it's self without argueing with any family members. I got to make a lot of children at a soup kitchen happy, and I to smack one man their for grabbing my booty. I kept busy, found a lot of extra time and lost a lot of sleep (Well the time had to come from somewhere!!). And now it is all over, and again for the first time in a long time I don't feel a particular let down after the holiday either. I had to come to work this morning with a walkie talkie (to see if it would work this far from home) and I had to pick my mom up because my brother cracked his tie rod (No big blow ups with Bro, thank God). And through the whole day after christmas eeek, I am still pretty happy and soothed. Maybe Santa isn't Evil, maybe I just need to learn to limit the toy giving, then again maybe I just need a bigger house!!!!

Christmas is comming!!!

Eeeeeeekkkkkkk!!!!!
I have only 6 more day to bring up the national debt to a proper amount!! I need to spend, spend, spend!!! I think I just hurt something?!?!?!? I also think I have pretty much lost my ever-lovin' mind. I am so tired of malls, and even internet shopping is getting on my nerves, I maen how many passwords can one site require?!?!? I miss my friands and I miss a normal Life, but I still have more christmas spirit than a lot of people I know. My Director actually fired someone on Friday, HO,Ho,Ho Merry Freakin' christmas !!!!!!

OK a little more normal now. I have a gazzillion dollars in presents sitting in my car for the children at Bessies Table my soup kitchen. I got doners to give the gifts and I bought some other stuff and tonight is the night for the handing out of the gifts. I'm actually really excited about that. Joey was ticked when he saw the R/C Dinosaur for another kid, but he will get over it.

Sorry folks but I now have to go back to work. I'll write ASAP now that I changed my password!!!

I Stink

OK so a lot of Stupid Stuff has been going on lately. They messed with everybody's commissions at work and they are trying to get people to quit and life here is kind of stressful. The stressful part added to the whole feeling sort of wacked out and lately I've been working and being with Joey (Believe it or not, he is the best little stress relief in the world). I have totally zoned out the rest of the world. I don't call I don't right and I keep forgetting where my life is. So last weekend I made a total, can't believe I did it, mess up. I went out with my Ex, Dave. Although for a lot of reasons that could have been a mistake, that was not to Doozy. I for got to call, write or in any way acknowledge Dawn's Birthday. I have in the past forgot the whole thing. Forgotten what month is was or what the heck I was supposed to be doing, but this time I had remembered it and let a Stupid Job and a I don't know whats going on Ex help me forget. So in Bib Letters I want to Appologize! I'M SORRY!!!!!!!!!! I am so Sorry I messed Up, Please forgive Me Mon Cheri'?!?!?!?!?

Vacation

1 week with a lot of people I love and 1 or 2 I can't stand. I managed to be pretty good about it all and all, I killed nobody and I was not the one who over the front railing and brought it down. I did set my arm on fire and get the mother of all sunburns, but it was one of the most relaxing weeks of my life. Me, Mom, Dad, Joey, Jake, Mary, John and Dave Eley, plus 2 cousins 2 nephews and a husband of Cuz and Fiance of Cuz, add in to all of this a "Fiance" of brother and you have a very mixed crowd. I went to beaches, beached my car, walked around, slept late and generally just veged with my kid. Joey had a blast, he loved the beaches, he loved the boats he loved something called the Tornado at a carnival and he caught his first 2 fish (So what if it was at a trout farm where they herd the fish toward you!!). That boy was in heaven. He was estatic and he had all his favorite people around him, well all his favorites as of this week, last week Auntie Dawn was his favorite and I was pond scum. I'll try and blog more soon.

Life as I see it

So Ok, Sue me, I'm a bad Blogger!!! It's been a while since my last blog and I almost feel catholic and in need of a good confession. Lately their has been a lot of unrest at work, theu changed the commissions structure and most everyone got an increase in their Goals. Well basically everyone but me. It turns out that as a new person my gooal was set to hight to begin with, actually it was the highest in the office. The thing is I met and exceeded it last month and the month before so they left it and didn't even give it a boost (Woo Hoo for me). On the down side of being number one is the stress, see laszt Sunday I ended up in the ER with a heart problem. Turns out the medication I was on combined with stress made my little heart go pitter patter a few too many times. Actually 3 too many to be exact. It would be supposed to beat once and it would beat 4 times instead. Go figure. It's not life threatening but it does cause anxiety attackes. So lucky for me I am going to be in MI on vacation this comeing week. Also no more Claritain for my allergies!!!! Joey 4th B-Day party went very well, we went out with God Mommy Dawn last weekend to a museum and she spend an unmentionable amount on a toy for him. He is a happy healthy spoiled 4 year old. But lets face it, what kid of mine would not be spoiled?? I'll try and be better at posting in the future Andy. love you all.

To The Minute Update

OK, and life is still odd. My son is still perfect (Or at least perfect for me). I am truly enjoying my job, although still stressing often. This Sunday is the Spaghetti Dinner (Wierdly Enough at Noon) at church for Bessies table. I am still mildly insane, and most of my friends are at least mildly insane. So basically all is well in my world. Hope it's the same with all of you.

Life as I see it

So this weekend was great. Joey and I went to Busy woods, he rode his bike and I hiked after him (Oh for the love of Mike I need to get a bike!!) We probobly went about 1 or 2 miles in all. We walked down by the lake and saw all the fishing people. We had lunch. It was all very peacful and calm, in other words 5 years ago it probably would have driven me cravy. I would have had to turn on a loud radio or do something totally off the wall, but I find that I totally love quiet time with my son. Today I realized that I know a woman who never ever plays with her daughter. Basically she is the mother and the child is the daughter, their is no "Playing". Joey and I were having a wresteling match in the yard and this woman was basically agast that I was rolling around on the ground getting all muddy (Boy did she miss it the rainy day Joey and I went on our worm rescue mission) and generally haveing a great time with Joey. I love my son, nobody can ever try and say diffrently, but I also like my son, and to me that is just as important.
Joey knows when I am being MOM and he acts accordingly (Basicaly only listening when he chooses to), but he also knows that mom will be their for a wresteling match or a sword fight in the yard. I'm not one of those moms who wants to be his friend, my kid deserves a real mommy, not a buddy. I just want top be a mom he is comfortable being with, I don't want him to feel he always has to be great around me, I just love him as himself.
Thats the part I hope to God he always remembers!!!

Good Times

Last night Iwas supposed to go Downtown to dinner and house hunting with a friend, last minute it got canceled so I was sort of at loose ends. I had promised Joey he and I would be going to dinner with a friend, he wanted his friend Darn it!!! So at the last minute I call my Auntie/Cuz/Buddy Vicky. For those of you who have had the honor of meeting Vicky, you know she is insane. She convinced Joey that if he could ride his bicycle without the training wheels he could get his drivers lisence. My aunt is a complete nut, but we had a great time, lathough now joey wants a car with a gas tank!!!!!!!!!!!!

Great Date

OK, so I had a great date this weekend. It was nothing big, just dinner and hanging out, but it was fun. We went to this place with like 200 diffrent kinds of beers and had horrible pizza, and then we watched the Surreal Life on TV. It may sound like nothing, but it was exactly what I needed at the time.

I'm sure their will be more to come in the dateing scene. As for Joey, he does not like Mommy dateing unless he can come with. I mean, how could I go for pizza without him!!!!

No More Boy Toy

Not that he was much of a boy, but Dave and I are splits. The best thing I can say about the relationship is that it showed me that I really would like a "Real" relationship, one where it is actually going somewhere. I'm so tired of bad boys, but when I totally went for the ultimate good boy, it was so darn boring I thought I would cry sometimes. There so has to be some sort of happy medium. Well that is about all that is new on the horizon. If anyone knows someone looking for an obnoxious woman with an adorable kid let me know, I might try for the who enchilada!!!

Life as I see it

A little girl went to her bedroom and pulled a glass jelly jar from its hiding place in the closet. She poured the change out on the floor and counted it carefully. Three times, even. The total had to be exactly perfect. No chance here for mistakes. Carefully placing the coins back in the jar and twisting on the cap, she slipped out the back door and made her way 6 blocks to Rexall's Drug Store with the big red Indian Chief sign above the door. She waited patiently for the pharmacist to give her some attention but he was too busy at this moment. Tess twisted her feet to make a scuffing noise. Nothing. She cleared her throat with the most disgusting sound she could muster. No good. Finally she took a quarter from her jar and banged it on the glass counter. That did it! "And what do you want?" the pharmacist asked in an annoyed tone of voice. I'm talking to my brother from Chicago whom I haven't seen in ages," he said without waiting for a reply to his question. "Well, I want to talk to you about my brother," Tess answered back in the same annoyed tone. "He's really, really sick... and I want to buy! a miracle." " I beg your pardon?" said the pharmacist. " His name is Andrew and he has something bad growing inside his head and my Daddy says only a miracle can save him now. So how much does a miracle cost?" "We don't sell miracles here, little girl. I'm sorry but I can't help you," the pharmacist said, softening a little. "Listen, I have the money to pay for it. If it isn't enough, I will get the rest. Just tell me how much it costs." The pharmacist's brother was a well dressed man. He stooped down and asked the little girl, "What kind of a miracle does your brother need?" " I don't know," Tess replied with her eyes welling up. I just know he's really sick and Mommy says he needs an operation. But my Daddy can't pay for it, so I want to use my money." " How much do you have?" asked the man from Chicago. "One dollar and eleven cents," Tess answered barely audibly. "And it's all the money I have, but I can get some more if I need to." "Well, what a coincidence," smiled the man. "A dollar and eleven cents---the exact price of a miracle for little brothers. " He took her money in one hand and with the other hand he grasped her mitten and said "Take me to where you live. I want to see your brother and meet your parents. Let's see if I have the miracle you need." That well dressed man was Dr. Carlton Armstrong, a surgeon, specializing in neuro-surgery. The operation was completed free of charge and it wasn't long until Andrew was home again and doing well. Mom and Dad were happily talking about the chain of events that had led them to this place. That surgery," her Mom whispered. "was a real miracle. I wonder how much it would have cost?" Tess smiled. She knew exactly how much a miracle cost...one dollar and eleven cents .. plus the faith of a little child..

Tree Killer

I AM THE MIGHTY TREE KILLER!!!!!!!!

I got to saw down a tree in my yard that keeps dropping mullberry's for my son to walk in. I am so tired of wiping up red foot prints in the summer. It still has some branches, just not right over the walkway. I also planted some flowers and went on a cleaning spree in the bedroom. I think I am ready for spring to, well, um, spring!!!!

At a later date I am going to put in something I need some advice on, but not quite yet. I need to think on it a bit more.

Have a great Easter Weekend Everyone!!!!

Love You All.

New Job

So I'm actually out of class on the new job, and calling customers. Earlier today I had a minor breakdown and had to get a "Snickers" bar. I had like 20 customers that hated their last rep so much they quit ordering from us, and some things we are the only company who sells unless you go to a dealer and pay more!!!! I was so disgusted and I was just kind of Gloomy and so I called my house and spoke to my financial advisor. He told me to invest in candy (And to bring some home to him) so I got the candy bar of the gods (No blasphemy really intended, just sort of marginally). I felt much better this afternoon, so I sold about 14K in product, plus all the other order that came in and were placed by others for my territory. It was a very productive afternoon, and I really like my job, so I guess I'll just have to keep my advisor on retainer. Have a great time people, Life is to damn short to skip a good candy bar now and then :)

Cool Site

I got an E-Mail that sent me a link to this site. I thought that they had a lot too say. I just wanted to let you guy take a look and tell me what you think. http://www.exxposeexxon.com/ Later Guys!!!!!!

Wierdly Enough

I spent my weekend at Ikea. I had to get a new Bedroom set that included a bed in the sky for my little spawn of satan. It was an experiance. I'm not sure I've ever spent that much money in one store before in my life. I did not expect to have to contend with a whining crying drop off at school because of this shopping spree however. This morning my son informed me that he could not go to school, because then he would not be able to nap in the bed in the sky (A Loft bed for those of you out of the loop). I actually had to drop him off kicking and screaming this morning. I was horrible. Now I'm feeling like the wicked with of the West and My kid hates me. I actually went so far as to call the teacher and check on him. Apperently he shut up as soon aws I walked out the door. I think I need to see a shrink. I also think I need to never spend that much money to get this kind of trauma ever again!!!!

1st Day of Pre School

OK so leaving the house this morning was a pain in the you-know what. My Mom needed my car, I was freaking because what it my baby got sick and I needed to go and pick him up from school?! What if their was a fire there and he needed me to rescue him? In the end I gave my mother the car as well as my cell phone (So if they called I could immediately get a hold of her to chant "I told you So" over and over again) and we dealt with the larger problem.

"Momma I won't go"
"Why Baby"
"I hate this shirt!!"
"But you loved this shirt last night?!?!?"
"Ugly Now, and I don't want to bring a share toy, who will take care of it when I come home at night?"
"If you don't bring a share toy then you don't get to play with any other share toys that the other kids bring this week."

All I got for that comment was an evil glare that shot ice cubes down my spine!!!!

"Momma?" Tears running down his face "I don't wanna go to a new school" Big shiny eyes staring at me from under damp lashes.
"Boo Boo, You are gonna love this school. I promise" He walked out to the car with me like I was taking him to the guillotine.

We get to school, we forgot the share toy so he brings in a kazoo from the car. He walks into the classroom, drops his coat on the floor turns around holding some little hussies hand and says to me

"OK Momma, you can go away now"!!!!!!!!

That little brat, imagine the unmitigated Gaul it took for him to say that too me. Doesn't he know I am going to be crying all morning and most of the afternoon because My baby is growing up?!?!? Isn't he even a little scared? Well I've called to check on him, and as far as the teachers can tell he is perfectly happy, they are very impressed about how secure and well adjust my child is. That is such a crock, the brat is just acting this way so I look like some sort of lunatic. That's it, on Thursday, I'm going to make him wear tight underwear or something else uncomfortable, let him know how it feels!!!

The Devil and the Deep Blue Joey

OK so the other day, on the way to a interview with a school, my loving and beutiful son informed me that he had come from the Devil.
You see hwe has always been told that he came to live with me after God felt I was a good enough person to have an angel (OK so it's a little sappy, but I'm a mommy darn it), he has also been told that god is everywhere. So when my goofy brother said, just as a joke, that the devil was everywhere, somhow my baby boy decided that the devil had made him. Needless to say, my brother is now sleeping with the fishes and I had to fix that misconception in the 7 min. it was going to take to get to the school that promotes prayer before all meals and in the mornings. I managed to keep my little boy from telling the teachers he was a spawn of satan, but it was a close thing.
from all of this I have learned that my baby is truly a evil genius, and that the function of a childs mind is no where near the function of an adults. They are much smarter and open minded than we are.
Well I'd better get going, but I will try and catch up with all of you soon. :)

Life as I see it

This weekend was a all out mess. My Mom has some dort of virus that is affecting her kidneys, so she is kind of tired and cranky. To cheer her up on Saturday I took her to get a manicure. Instead of a manicure we ended up shopping for clothes for my dad and buying a booty ugly bed room set that she loved at a estate sale. Now I had a cranky tired Mom a Cranky and tired Dad (He hates new clothes and moving futniture) and a cranky tired Kid. My day actually started Saturday by my taking the boy to a childrens expo at Arlington Park Race Track. He wanted to know if he could bet the Ponies (My moms Influance). So needless to say when Dave called Saturday evening I was so glad he was tired, because All I wanted to do was crash. Sunday was just as bad. I shopped for Groceries and had to get 2 of my cousins to go and get the bedroom set with me (Thank god for huge cusins with big trucks!!) I did get to see my cousin Carrie, she was in for the weekend from college. She is skinny as a rail, what the heck happened to the Freshman 20 I keep hearing about?!?!?! We got the stuff moved in, the old stuff out and visited for a while. I then had to run a few more errands and get ready for the oscars (Which I missed most of) Finally I got to go to bed (After whining for a while that my head hurt) and this morning all ?I wanted was to get into work so I could get a break!!! So kudos to those of you who get a peaseful weekend, I'm shooting to get one sometime next month is possible!!

Growing Up

In the past couple of years I have noticed an alarming trend. I seem to be growing up. I am now a woman with a real Bank account, I have a car payment, I am looking into relegated to purchase. I have recently made an appointment to see a lawyer to have a will drawn up. I am trying to repair a lot of mistakes I've made in my past.
I guess I watched my friends either grow up or pretend to grow up. One friend, who would swear she was an exceptional Adult, is the most childish person I've ever met. She has 4 kids, who she swears are killing her 1/2 the time. A perfectly nice husband, who she always thrashes and undercut. A house in a nice town, which she hates because it isn't as clean as she would like all the time. With all that she would seem to be a Grown up, but in reality everything that is wrong in her life is someone else's fault and she regresses to our High School Years at the drop of a hat. I really do feel sorry for her and I have to admit I have pretty much totally pulled away from her in the past couple of years.
Then I have the friend who really has grown up (Not that she would wear a serious expression in the middle of July) She has a decent Job that although she occationally Bitches about I believe she really thrives on. She has made a place for herself in the world without having to depend on all sorts of other people. Yet she is still a part of my and many others lives. She takes responsibility for herself and her life and she seems to be happy in most of her choices.
The second friend is the one I strive to be more like. I had a small short circuit for a while and before that I had no reason to be serious about much of anything, but now I have a son and a fairly respectable job and I use the word Heiney a lot.
Here is to the RedHead from Blondilocks, thanks for making me think about what I want to be when I grow up.

By the way, on a different note, their was a huge industrial waste incident on my head, please pray for me to get normal hair color back soon!!!!

Weekend Delight

So Dave took my hint (Will wonders never cease) and took me dancing. It was kind of cool, we went to a restraint called the Wellington in Rolling Meadows and danced to a lot of Big band Music. The best part was the Band name though, it was "The Manila Funk Band" Dave of course keeps swearing that the band was Manila Vanilla, but I know he is Getting Sometimers. You have never danced to Sinatra until you have Danced to Sinatra as done by a Filipino gentleman. I had a Apple martini. It was very strong. It was a lot of Fun and I hope we do it again soon, this coming weekend he is talking about going to a dance Bar. That will be fun too!!

New Job

OK, sorry about the delay (Salright Dawn!) I am in training for my new job, so far I really like it a lot. We did have one guy that was really not doing well, they had to let him go. I felt sorry for him, but there is only so much you can do to help a person before it becomes a detriment to them. Any way, I am learning a lot of new stuff about printing (Surprise, Surprise!) and I actually got to see some presses the other day. They are pretty cool. I'm not really learning how to sell so much as how to talk about the products intelligently.
Also I recently got a new car. Just for the record, I am loving it!! I is a really spiffy "Virgin American Camel". Joey also loves it, but we did have to go out and get him a booster seat instead of his regular car seat, the best thing about the booster as far as he is concerned is that fact that it has cup holders!! Now he has enough leg room no matter who is sitting in the passenger seat.
Also, I have started trying to get back into Yoga and Taoism again. Not like as a religion, but as a way of calming myself and getting a little more physical limber. I know it sounds kind of like "New Age BS" but it really worked for me in the past.
So now I've pretty much updated you on all the great stuff!! The boy toy is still around more or less, I am still trying to get my mother a new job (It totally seems to stink looking for a job when you are over 50) and I still teach the HS Class every other week at church. I am looking into getting Joey into a daycare 2 days a week and my father is actually all for it, he used to sneer every time I suggested it.
Hope you are all doing well.

Love As I see It

So I spent Sunday at church and with some great friends. LOater that night as I was being forced to Watch yet another Scooby Doo episode It occured to me that I had really enjoyed seeing those friends, even though we had run into a guy I used to know who was hyper at the very least. I also realized how much I cared about both of those friends and that I probably didn't tell them nearly enough how great they were. I my life I have finally decided I am blessed with my circle of friends and family. Son of the people I know have taught me so much about strengeth and compassion that I can't believe I ever felt alone in my whole life. I realized that New Friends or old, life and love make everything better in the end.

New Job

So in my first week on the job, I have gotten 2 free lunches and a free dinner at Harry Carey's. I am learning more that I ever though I wanted to know about Printing Presses and varoius other machines for Printers and Binders. Overall I really seem to fit in well here. I did have to buy a new vehical due to an unfortunate incident involving a transmission and a lot of rotten luck, but in the end I got a nice newer car and Joey really like it. I'm in training for Inside sales for right now, But I will try and remember to keep you all posted on my current events!!!

Old Years End

So for my final act of the old year, I asked the man in my life to marry me. I know it isn’t the most traditional way of doing things, but since when have I gone for the traditional way?!?! Anyway I decided that since we had been together for a year and a half and that since I love him I didn’t see any reason not to ask. I turns out that the reason I shouldn’t have asked is because he is “Not Ready”. I know it was not meant to be a reflection on his feelings for me per se, but that he was not ready for the whole institution of marriage at this time, but how do you tell your feeling that? I mean I was all sunny dispositions until I could excuse myself to be alone and then I cried for about 10 minutes. Now I’ve decided that all this means is that all the plans I need to make do not have to revolve around him at all. I want to take Joey on a nice vacation this summer, so Joey and I go for it (I’m thinking Puerto Rico). I want to get a place of my own, but because I do not have to consider him in this I don’t have to do it to fast. Believe it or not that means I can help out my parents out a little more, I can do more of the stuff I want to do before I actually go through the whole buying of a home deal. I can also see if he is really what I want. I mean if I finally am in the marrying frame of mind shouldn’t I find someone who is also of that mind? I love the guy dearly.